When it Matters

It doesn't matter how slow I run if I won't run at all I say my thighs rub together My shorts--they don't fit right It doesn't matter how my body feels if I choose to numb it food today, wine tonight a schedule so tight so I can't stop to feel It doesn't matter how …

‘’I Don’t Have an Eating Disorder, I’m Just Obsessed with Health’’ and Other Lies I Told Myself

One bite of a sandwich? Write it down. An extra piece of fruit? That’s okay, I’ll be at the gym for at least an hour later. Do these pants fit yet? No, but I’ll give myself two more weeks to get into them. Not long ago, being ‘healthy’ was on my mind 95% of the …